Discipleship

Asking God To Destroy Me!

Jun 16, 2009

I shaved my gottee the other day…and didn’t really say anything to anyone about it.  I wanted to see if anyone noticed and what their reaction was…

And the most unique reaction came from Charisse.

Keep in mind that I have had a gottee since she was born…that’s the only way she’s ever known me.  Many times she has sat in my lap and played with my whiskers.

SO…after I shaved I walked into the living room and picked her up and began playing with her.  She drew back from me and stared…put her hand where my gottee used to be and felt that it was smooth…and then proceeded to FREAK OUT!

Seriously…I was worried about her for a second.  She wanted OUT of my arms because I had changed things up on her.  She was used to me being a certain way…and when that wasn’t a reality for her anymore she had a hard time dealing with it…

I think I’ve had the same experience with God many times!!!  I’ve thought of Him as being a certain way.  I’ve placed Him in a box and built up my beliefs based on who I think He is…and He just keeps destroying my limited ideas and revealing Himself to me in ways I’ve never thought about…

Which makes me VERY uncomfortable…

One of the problems I believe I have had as a follower of Jesus is that I want to develop and idea of who God is and then have Him stay there…my desire for comfort has dominated my thinking…

But God never really invites us to a place of comfort…in fact, when He uses someone in the Scriptures He usually had to DESTROY a lot of their preconceived notions.  (Isaiah 6 and Acts 9 immediately come to mind.)

SO…my prayer lately has been, “God, teach me to see as You see…and destroy in me what needs to be destroyed  so that I can see you for who You are and not for who I want you to be!”

When is the last time you asked the Lord to make you uncomfortable?  To destroy you?  To reveal who HE IS to you rather than who you want Him to be?  WATCH IT…seeking the Lord like this is dangerous…it will propel you into an uncomfortable place…but it is in that place that He ruins us and then uses us to make a difference for Him!